Wednesday, January 4, 2012

A thousand years

There are some thoughts after losing your baby that are absolutely devastating and break my heart over and over. One of the worst, for me, is I will never say his name to him ever again.
I talk about him daily, I say his name, I share his story. But I will never be able to talk to him again. Face to face, holding him, breathing his scent, touching his hair; I will never be able to again. 

It's so hard to wrap your head around, the term: forever. 
For the rest of my life, Corbin will be gone. I will always be an angel mom. Forever.

 "I have died everyday
 waiting for you.
 Darlin' don't be afraid
 I have loved you for a thousand years
 I'll love you for a thousand more."
 -Christina Perri