As a grieving mother, it is important to be able to reach out to others who are experiencing the same thing. Knowing you are not alone is crucial. I am so thankful for the internet at a time like this. When Corbin was in the hospital and struggling, he had a wide group of supporters from all over the world rooting for him. People came out of nowhere to lend support and love and prayers. I honestly don't know how we would have handled it had we not had that support team.
When he passed away, the tidal wave of love was mind blowing. Friends of friends of friends were there to say "I'm sorry" and to offer their support. I started a Facebook event sharing my balloon release for Corbin the day of his burial. I received hundreds of pictures of people around the world releasing balloons as well. Corbin had a lot of love that day and I will never forget it.
I hope this blog reaches that one person who needs to hear it the most: You are not alone. I understand. And I hurt with you.
There is no right or wrong way to grieve. This is very important to understand. I struggled a lot with guilt immediately after Corbin passed but you must remember none of what happened is your fault. I think my mission to spread Pulse Ox awareness has helped to keep me busy but it doesn't take away the guilt. I WANT to be a depressed, sobbing mess that can't get out of bed. I WANT to be unable to hold a conversation without breaking down into tears. But I'm not. I hurt, I cry, I do get depressed; but my goals and my passion to help others has really helped me through. I want to help. I truly believe God made me an angel mom because he knew I could help others. He is working through me to help save other lives in honor of Corbin. I am thankful for that. I wish I could spend the rest of my life taking care of Corbin but that is not meant to be. I know he is safe and feels no more pain. I hope he is proud of me and what I am trying to accomplish.
The following links are to websites and blogs that may be able to help you. I hope you find what you are looking for or are enable just to vent. Blogging has helped me heal and I hope it helps you too.
A site started by a mother who lost her young son. She dreamt she saw him on the beach and ran to where he was. When she got there he was gone, but his name was written in the sand. She has been writing angel baby's names in the sand ever since. She takes requests periodically and for a small fee, will write your baby's name in the sand, take a picture, and email you the jpeg. It is a wonderful service that I'm glad I found and used. See Corbin's name in the sand.
A website dedicated to stories of loss. You can submit your story or read others and leave comments. It helps to read other stories to see what other mothers have gone through and how they have handled it. I have submitted my story and you can read it here.
A place to just vent, scream, cry, or cuss someone out. Totally anonymous if you choose and you will find many others who are going through the same thing. The support team is amazing.
A site dedicated to gathering and sharing stories of mothers doing good in their angel baby's name. A wonderful site created by Kristine to encourage doing good on every 30th day of the month. She recently featured Corbin's story on this site.
This site is dedicated to gathering blogs of child loss and sharing their stories. You can search through different categories to find the support you need.
A site offering support and resources for parents that have lost a child. Started by an angel mother, it offers first hand advice and love.
A site offering support and a pen pal system to help you grieve and share your baby's story. They have an extensive list of support sites as well as sites where you can send your story to have your baby remembered.
A site offering a space to submit your story for others to read and remember your baby. They also have an extensive list of child loss and miscarriage support sites. They offer ecards you can send to someone you know who is grieving.
Started by a mother who lost her daughter Chloe as a stillborn. Her mission is to educate and empower mothers to hopefully reduce the number of stillbirths.
Started by a mother named Mel, this site is dedicated to providing support and love to those who have lost a child to miscarriage, stillbirth, or infant loss. In honor of her son Finley.
A site started by a mother who has suffered 11 miscarriages and one still birth of her son Triton. The site is a safe place to tell your story or to anonymously share your sadness, anger, guilt, or happiness. It also offers resources for those who have experienced miscarriage, stillbirth, or infant loss.
March of Dimes is dedicated to helping prevent premature birth and birth defects. They educate, advocate, and help raise money to ensure healthy babies. They also have a section about losing a child that provides resources and support.
When he passed away, the tidal wave of love was mind blowing. Friends of friends of friends were there to say "I'm sorry" and to offer their support. I started a Facebook event sharing my balloon release for Corbin the day of his burial. I received hundreds of pictures of people around the world releasing balloons as well. Corbin had a lot of love that day and I will never forget it.
I hope this blog reaches that one person who needs to hear it the most: You are not alone. I understand. And I hurt with you.
There is no right or wrong way to grieve. This is very important to understand. I struggled a lot with guilt immediately after Corbin passed but you must remember none of what happened is your fault. I think my mission to spread Pulse Ox awareness has helped to keep me busy but it doesn't take away the guilt. I WANT to be a depressed, sobbing mess that can't get out of bed. I WANT to be unable to hold a conversation without breaking down into tears. But I'm not. I hurt, I cry, I do get depressed; but my goals and my passion to help others has really helped me through. I want to help. I truly believe God made me an angel mom because he knew I could help others. He is working through me to help save other lives in honor of Corbin. I am thankful for that. I wish I could spend the rest of my life taking care of Corbin but that is not meant to be. I know he is safe and feels no more pain. I hope he is proud of me and what I am trying to accomplish.
The following links are to websites and blogs that may be able to help you. I hope you find what you are looking for or are enable just to vent. Blogging has helped me heal and I hope it helps you too.
A place to just vent, scream, cry, or cuss someone out. Totally anonymous if you choose and you will find many others who are going through the same thing. The support team is amazing.
A site dedicated to gathering and sharing stories of mothers doing good in their angel baby's name. A wonderful site created by Kristine to encourage doing good on every 30th day of the month. She recently featured Corbin's story on this site.
This site is dedicated to gathering blogs of child loss and sharing their stories. You can search through different categories to find the support you need.
A site offering support and resources for parents that have lost a child. Started by an angel mother, it offers first hand advice and love.
A site offering support and a pen pal system to help you grieve and share your baby's story. They have an extensive list of support sites as well as sites where you can send your story to have your baby remembered.
A site offering a space to submit your story for others to read and remember your baby. They also have an extensive list of child loss and miscarriage support sites. They offer ecards you can send to someone you know who is grieving.
Started by a mother named Mel, this site is dedicated to providing support and love to those who have lost a child to miscarriage, stillbirth, or infant loss. In honor of her son Finley.
A site started by a mother who has suffered 11 miscarriages and one still birth of her son Triton. The site is a safe place to tell your story or to anonymously share your sadness, anger, guilt, or happiness. It also offers resources for those who have experienced miscarriage, stillbirth, or infant loss.
March of Dimes is dedicated to helping prevent premature birth and birth defects. They educate, advocate, and help raise money to ensure healthy babies. They also have a section about losing a child that provides resources and support. 