Thursday, September 1, 2011

My story was finally published on Faces of Loss. I don't know how I feel. 

I wish I didn't have anything to share. 
I wish I never had to tell this story.

The picture of me is sad for a reason. I see so many other pictures of mothers on that site and they are smiling. Yet their story is so heartbreaking. I understand that may have been the only picture they had or the only one they wanted to use. I just felt is was inappropriate for me to post a picture of myself smiling. 
Why would I be happy to post about infant loss?
I'm not. 

So feel free to hop over to Faces of Loss and leave some love. Not just to me, but to other grieving mothers. 


  1. I think you're right, it's the only picture they had, or they feel weird posting a pic of them not smiling. We're all so conditioned to post smiling pictures. xo

  2. I am so sorry for your loss of Corbin. When I was submitting my story for FOL I struggled with what picture to use. I didn't feel like getting in front of the camera to take a new photo, but I also didn't like the idea of using a happy, smiling photo from before my son was born. It didn't seem genuine. It didn't reflect how I was feeling anymore. But as I was looking through photos, I found the last one that was taken before my son was born. It was taken on Christmas day. I was beaming. As I looked at that photo and remembered how amazing it felt to be carrying our first child, I found myself smiling. It became a really meaningful photo in that moment, and it felt right to have it attached to his story. That was the feeling I want to remember for always.

  3. Thank you. It made ME smile imagining your picture. Thank you for sharing and I'm glad you found "that one" picture that will always make you happy. I'm so sorry for your loss. Hugs and love.